Autopsy of Depression

This project tries to visualize how depression felt and how mental suffering affected me.

When struggling mentally, I was suffering psychically too. Often, I found myself drowning in my thoughts, feeling suffocated. It felt as if my lung had been trapped inside a balloon, tightened. When such pressure failed to be processed properly, I found myself crying unpredictably. And whenever I looked into the eyes of my partner, my tears would come running down even though I felt emotionally numb.

I also found myself emotionally unavailable and drained under depression. Thus, it was difficult to understand me, even for those who have my best interests at heart: my family, partner, and friends. And little do they know, even by attempting to understand me, they were hurting me. Just like to decipher the music in a record, the pointy stylus will have to travel across the disk, and the process can be inevitably painful.

However, with professional help and a handful of love, I was eventually free from my depression, something that once swallowed me whole.